sad >.<

i feel just wanna cry.. but can't cry out.. i dunno why... im happy today in sch.. cuz no more holidayz.. no more bored.. i tot i will be happy.. but.. wrong wrong wrong!! im wrong!! i just wan find back mie happy.. but... all lost.. today maked me sad again...

*/samantha told me something today.. she said he chat wif him.. and he ask samantha~
him: who is the fu*k ** chin yen?
sam: why u scold my fren bad world?
him: u know her?
sam: ya.. she is my fren.. why u scold her?
him: bcuz she said yong enn couple wif me..
sam: oic..
him: i go ur class tomorrow.. tell me who is ** chin yen...
sam: ok
him: gtg bye

i dunno wat happen!!! i luv him* but yen also my best fren.. yen told me she nvr do dis b4.. so.. who i can believe?! if is yen say dis.. i also wont care.. tat's her mounth.. not mine.. i can't control her mounth too.. i wont care also.. but i scard him.. i dunno wat he will do for yen >.< ... and i duno wat i can do now???????!!!!!!!

*/ another here.. the Nacny.. i tot she is my best fren... i tot we can frenz 4 ever... but.. she scolded me today in class!!! hell lah!!!!!!! tat time she wrong.. but she still scold me!!!!!! i dunno wat i done wrong.. but i noe... she was wrong... mny form2 students told me dun so fren wif her.. she like to scold plp.. and some of my best frenz also told me.. they hate her... but.. i nvr care anthing... alwayz i just think.. dun think plp bad.. just think they is gud, kind, friendly and etc... just fren them... tat's nth.. but.. izzit im wrong?! and i remember mum said "ren yao kan kai dian".. so i just follow dis wrold "kan kai"... but now.. i dunno how adi >.<" ~ kan kai.. ya i noe.. but dun so kan kai.. i will die!!!

so wat should i do now?! wat i done?! izzit im wrong?! or their wrong?! no plp noe wat im thinking about.. no plp noe im sad.. someone juz noe how to scold me... they dunno wat im thinking!!! my face look like apple.. *happy apple* .. i alwayz smile in sch.. like very happy de.. but no plp noe bout mie heart.. just myself noe... my heart nvr smile b4... same like very sad.. broken adi