today saturday.. so fast 2005 gonna end.. i dunno wad happen.. i dunno y today i will think out so my thingz.. i think back.. wad 2005 happen.. first my mom went hospital.. den follow by grandma, uncle, sista.. and my grandpa pass away =( last week my uncle house let ppl went inside steal thingz. my hse kancil lost.. dad factory burn.. so sad.. ok.. diz onli my family problem.. my frenz.. heizz.. dunno how to say.. 1 yr jor i still cant find out my best fren in ssg.. no 1 can let me trust dem de.. somemore they also din think im their frenz.. sometimes they play until too crazy.. ok.. laugh me i dun care.. i noe im ugly.. i noe im stupid.. but.. plz dun say until hurt me.. last time i alwiz heard from wad mum said.. "ren".. if ren/dun care.. den nth will happen.. but.. i cant do it!!! and some fren got problem wan.. haih dunno how.. really sad.. gonna cry out..
everytime sad i juz think bout my grandpa.. he's the best.. everytime dad scold me or wad i juz will cry in front of him.. and tell him wad happen.. juz onli him.. he wont scold me.. he will tell me y dad scold me.. well~ i so miss him!!!! i remembah the day b4 he died he told me.. "ni yao guai guai tin hua hao hao du shu" i will remembah forever.. gong.. i really miss u! now i cant cry in front of u.. i cant talk to u.. i cant call ah gong.. i cant tell u wad happen in my life.. i so sad.. i juz noe cry in front the comp when i writting diz.. or cry in front the mirror.. tell myself.. i cannot cry.. i hv to stop crying.. if not gong gong will dun lik.. so sad... actually i dun lik to say out wad happen wan.. but i dunno y today i will say out.. i think im tired to keep diz all of thingz.. i hope to stop everything.. i dun hope to lost anyone of my family.. my fren.. plz STOP!!
ssg frenz.. is ok if they dislik me.. hate me.. i dun care.. watever how u all still my best frenz in my mind.. i will forget the bad thingz.. and think for the best thingz.. sometimes when u all dun care me i felt so sad.. my heart lik gonna break.. in sch.. how to cry out when my frenz dun care me? everyone got their best frenz.. i also got.. hehe.. cuz i think for teh best thingz everyone also my best frenz.. i juz wan to tell the frenz tat dislik me and dun trust me wan.. watever how.. we still frenz.. and my frenz hu gonna change sch.. i will miss u ^^
yesterday heard from my mum.. someone died.. my uncle dad.. everytime i saw him he very strong wan.. but.. sunddely told me he died.. i heard jor so sad.. how cm a person say die den die? so fast? i so sad wif my life.. wad happen????
