yesterday my daddy birthday, but i din give him anything. dun ask me why, because im angry when everytime i saw him !! ok, start here.. yesterday i used photoshop to made a pic for him.. *bout his birthday present* but when i done all things, i look at his face, then suddenly i deleted all the things, why? i love my daddy !! but.. did he love me? NOOOOOO!!!! i use my eyes, i use my heart and see also cant feel he love me !! what a daddy u're? you just know everyday scold your children, did u think how we feel? did you know what my heart thinking? ok.. my brother he is the only son in my family so my mummy love him alot, my elder sister she is clever !!.. my both younger sisters, hrmm.. maybe cute? clever? pretty? so they love them alot.. but how about me? stupid gal ! idiot ! ugly ! fat !!!! alot of things.. so my daddy dun love me.. aikksss.. i dunno im angry or sad..
this afternoon at office he called my name, then i went out.. he ask me to help him do something, is ok what.. he is my daddy so he ask me do something is nth wrong.. after 5mins he called my name again, i heard edi then i told my sisters, "heizz everytimes he call my name also no good things happen" T_T i walk to his office then he told me, " you go find another school la, i wan help u change school" i wan to cry out on that time when i heard that!!! after that he call my sister help me to find school.. luckily my sister help me so he think for a while then said form3 then i help you change school.. but but but.. i miss my friends!!! how can i change school? i angry him!!!!!! last time i told him before i dun wan study in ssg, i said "ssg very expensive you can dun let me study in there" but he MUST me study in there.. ok.. he is my DADDY so what he said i also have to listen to him. but now i dun wan leave this school!!!! how? i used 1years to made new friends.. learn more things from ssg.. aiksss i dun wan talk about that edi.. i dun hope cry again.. but I REALLY DUN WAN CHANGE SCHOOL!!!!! i cried in front of my mummy and sister.. i said i dun wan change.. but i know they cant help what.. so now.. what should i do??? die?? or just listen to him?? ='( *what a family is this????*
yesterday i heard what my brother said to my mother about what his heart thinking.. well~ i pity my brother.. at home daddy and mummy will scold us.. but at outside with friends no ppl will scold us.. thats why i always ask my daddy i want go out with friends!!! my friends will make me laugh and happy.. but my family will make me more sad and angry.. i look like no people like me in my family.. ONLY MY GRANDPA!! but he pass away edi.. how? i only and miss him.. miss the times that i togther with him.. gong gong i miss you!!! why my daddy wont same like my grandpa? my grandpa is only the one who love me.. welll i got it everything..
