actually i very tired now.. i wan go inside my room and cry.. i dun hope to face with my family.. i feel very tired.. i know cry cant help but after i cried i will feel better.. aikssss my daddy just back from china.. i dunno how come i so hate him.. he said im stupid, he said my result many red, he said i sure cant study in wesley methodist school / wms.. well i angry about this !!! the one who ask me to change school is you!!! the one who ask me to take exam to this school is you!!! the one you said im stupid is you!!! what also you!!!! what can i do? can i choose myself what i gonna do? i cant choose anything.. i dun wan change school.. i dun wan take exam.. i dun wan !!!
yesterday night i suddely cried out, i cant stop it!!! i keep on cry.. i dunno how.. in that time i hope to find someone can let me tell what happen to me.. what i hope.. what i wish.. i took my phone and see my friends list but all look very busy.. somemore i dun wan let my them know im sad.. because i dun hope they sad too.. i din let tracy, phui cheng, yan yee, samantha and mellissa know what happen to me.. because i dun hope they sad.. i hope everyone who know me can be happy forever.. happy always.. but that time i really very down.. super down.. i just hope to open the window and jump down, but sure cant die wan.. so i sms hao and told him im crying.. i ask him how.. i told him i super down.. when he know im crying he called me and ask what happen.. i din say out but he understand what im thinking.. im happy i have a good friend.. thanks hao.. after that i feel better.. i stop crying and go do my homework..
nowdays i feel so down.. im sad.. everynight i cant sleep.. yesterday and today morning i also cant wake up go to tuition.. im sad !!! i tuition at 9am but i slept until 10something den i go tuition.. teacher know im down so din just told me.. he said try to talk to my parents.. well~ can i? i just told teacher many things.. but i know he cant help what.. because this is my own problem.. only myself can help myself..
i dunno what im typing.. i just know im sad! i super sad now.. i have to smile in front of my friends.. but.. my heart arent smiling.. my heart crying everytimes.. i cant control myself.. i cried everynight.. i know im stupid.. i know!!!!!!! i write all the things on my blog is i hope myself can feel better.. isnt ask ppl to pity me.. isnt ask ppl to scold me!!!!! i very sad.. very downnnn i told my tuition teacher.. if one day i really cant control myself i think i will go die.. jump down from the window..
after u read my blog i dun hope you ask me about this.. i dun hope anyone to ask me.. i very tired.. i very down..
