do you love me? or her?
she's my best friend and one day.. she broke up with her bf and her bf is my best friend too.. then i just try to help them and chat with them everyday.. but the guy told me they cant be together anymore.. asked me to give up.. and he told me all my best friend things.. she's a play gal.. she can love 3guys in a times.. okiee i don't care about this because however she still my best friend.. i just beside him everyday.. i be his MUI.. i help him to forget her..
few months later.. they just a normal friends.. and since that day they broke up and i always beside the guy until now.. me and him not a BEST FRIEND and also not a SIBLING so easy.. we starting in love each other..
but the guy told me.. he still got some feeling with his ex girlfriend.. i don't care about this.. he told me he love me more than he love her.. so our love became deep and deep.. but suddenly his ex gf and also my best friend.. she find back the guy i loving and told him she still love him.. this few months she coupled two times but also broke up.. then finally she know that she still loving him..
the guy super fan.. he don't know what to do.. and everyday told me how she treat him.. he said he wil dont care her.. but few days later.. he told me she made him loving her back.. he told me all the things.. he love both of us.. he don't know how to choose anddd he tot that if i smile that's mean i'm nothing.. he don't know what kind of person am i..
i wont cry in front of others.. however my heart get hurt.. the week that we having final exam.. i just try to don't think of that and concentrate on my study.. i told myself i must study harder get the best result for his birthday present.. but i cant do that.. after my exam week i cried for everynight.. i cant sleep well.. i don't know what should i do.. i try to control myself.. i dont want to let anyone know about this.. but if i still keep this myself i scare i will became crazyyy..
not her.. and also not him.. is ME! if i don't care of them then i wont get hurt now.. and now will be nothing happen.. myself is myself.. but.. everything is happening.. what should i do? he told me he love me but also told me he love her too..
he love me is want to help himself to forget her.. the day when we wanna start couple and the gal came out.. we don't want to hurt her so we didn't tell her our things.. only two of us know about this.. unfair? i get hurt.. i cried for everynight and both of them can be happy everyday..
he don't want to choose one of us out.. he said FAN then don't care.. but.. do you know what's my feeling? im hurt.. im down.. im sad.. i don't know what should i do.. i want to give up you and let both of you together back.. i want you get back the happiness that you want last time.. because of her.. you sad for everyday.. i know how the feeling that she said broke up with you.. i everyday beside of you.. try to make you happy.. i just want you happy.. at last i did it..
so that.. now.. i think i must give up you.. i want let you happy.. i want both of you together back.. but i cant do it.. i don't know why.. think think myself.. what did i get?
HURT.. and SADNESS..
this is what i want?
