omggg. today i made someone that i really love and care dissapointed. don't know how to say. i just know that myself super useless. i think not the first time that i made him dissapointed on me. maybe i hurt him many times.
just started bout 4 or 5 days then i made him sad edi. say out also funny. i accept him since last friday. actually this is my problem and not his problem. i don't have the courage to face him. okay lah. im trying myself to face him. but please give me some times. ok? i just need some times.
he like sad or angrying me now. i don't know how. just know sitting there and see what he wanna do. follow his advice. yesterday when he said give him time to think think then i became super moody edi. but after back he made me happy back. today i asked mummy to let me go out with friend. she said yes. up to me. actually the friend is him.
i can go out but suddenly i told him that i have no courage to face him then he became upset on me edi. arhhhh. i really don't know what am i trying to say. i asked my friends what is the meaning of couple. but i still don't understand. haha. my face look mature but you know, my brain just like a primary kid.
many things that i still don't know and don't understand. couple? i think i still don't know yet. and i'm a useless girlfriend too. aiksss. or maybe say im still young. just like vincent told me *I'm under age to couple, study first* =.=" hehe. good guy.
hmm. i really like him, he can make me happy always. make me happy everyday. when i with him i still can do many things that i want. just like more one person that love me and care me. but i don't know how to treat him good. or make him happy. im trying.
okay lah. with him i still will concentrate on my study. he want i study hard to get result for him. some people don't let me couple is because they scare i don't concentrate on my study. but with him i still will study hard.
# dear, i really trying hard to face you. give me sometimes. okayy? and really sorry that i hurt you so many times. the word "sorry* is what i need to tell you and not you tell me. so stop saying sorry to me. not ur fault. #
hehe. i think next time if mummy scare me couple, i will answer her. *mummy, don't worry la. i very hard to get couple wan. haha. when i want to accept the guy. then sure will get many problem come out wan* or maybe the god said im too young to know what is couple. hehe.
jie, don't worry. start from now what happen or however hurt that i get i also still will concentrate on my work. just like now. hehe. i bigger edi. i will know what am i trying to do. i know you dislike i couple. you scare i will not concentrate on my study. but i tell you. if i couple i also will study hard. i will wont forget my dream is study harder and harder to become like you =)
