yaa. i hope so. everyone hope they got tomorrow too. why not? i have many things haven't do yet. i havne't take my pmr exam. i haven't go oversea study. i haven't do what i want to do. i haven't see how parents look when they're old age. many many things i haven't see yet. many many things i haven't know yet. im only 15 years old.
so i want i have tomorrow or maybe i hope i got tomorrow. maybe tomorrow i can meet my dear? haha. 7months we never meet each other. lolzz. very hard to believe. time gone fast. well~ actually many many things happening to me. if you know me well, i think you can see i changed a lot. and many funny things happening on me.
story start here. tracy broke up with boon loong last few months. why they break up nobody know. because that is their love problem. we cant care at all. but then boon loong suddenly blame us. at first he blame alex (lee, lum and sim) they all ask tracy break up. he said tracy in love with alex so now tracy dont wan him. he disturb my friends(the 3 alex). he msg them and scold them. he said because of them tracy dont want him. maybe because their name call alex so boon loong hate them. i dont know why.
when they receieved msg from boon loong. they really angry with him. and know what i do? i always tell them don't care about him maybe will nothing happen. he will stop after the feel tired. he sure sad. why not? no one will happy if the one who they love the most leave them. i tell them just dont think about it. boon loong sure will sad. just yan him!
slowly slowly..
don't know what happen. he suddenly blame me. he sms me all the time. scolded me all those bad words that i never see before. he scared me all the time. and i scare! i really scare! i cried everyday! then friends told me. those bad words is normal edi. maybe im a gal that seldom heard bad words so i easy get scared. okayy. everyone ask me dont care. everyone dont let me read the msg. everyone scare i cry and cry again. i can dont cry and dont care. but im still scare. i cried everyday. i tell you. im crazy!
he said i teach bad tracy. he said i ask tracy join alex they all. he said i jles he love tracy much so i break their relationship. he said i jles tracy result better than me so i want teach bad her. he said i jles tracy cuter and prettier than me. well~ everything is just ME! NG YONG ENN!
i slowly talk to him. i never angry him before because i know he get hurt from tracy. but then what he do to me? he scold me more worst. he said i want make trouble with him. but he dont know i never do things b4. only he making trouble! he hacked all my account and changed all the password. do all those stupid things in my frindster profile. i never angry i never care but i am still scare! he dare to sent dog food to us. he do many scary things.
i dont know how. i control myself and asked myself dont care, dont think. i want be back myself. i want smiling everyday like last time that me. but you know what happen to me? i get crazy. i drop into the dream. my dad scolded me say i join those bad friends. because im studying in the last class so now many problem. all the problem also start from me. he blame me too! just blame and scold! i really down with bl problem but my dady never help me. somemore scold me more. i got crazy and wanna die~ you know? i really wanna kill myself that day.
but after few days i think think back. i woke up and get out from the dream. because i know evreyone who around me is still concern me, worring me and caring me. friends know i love winnie the pooh and buy presnt for me ask me must be brave and slove the problem. friends always be my side cheer me up. teacher let me share my problem with them. friends(the guys) always ask me dont worry. they will always protect me. THEY MAKE ME GET OUT FROM THE DREAM! slowly~ i feel better! i found back my smile. i be back myself.
friends helped me alot. everyone help me get back my password. at last i got back. hotmail give back me my password so now i got back all my account. but after this i think problem coming back. today boon loong sms yan yee said will kill me by this few days. i cant act nothing happen. that is me! im going to die. he cant control himself edi. i will die anytime start from now!
not what. but i still want my tomorrow. i scare i have no tomorrow! i still got many things want to do. boon loong, here to tell you~ i never do what you think. because of you. i got scolded from my friends too. everyone scolded me why i still want to help yoU! i got in trouble from you and still helping you. okay.. fine !~ if you blame me i will only say sorry. if you think scare me, disturb me or kill me after those stupid and childish things tracy will love back you. then i have nothing to say. i really feel tired.
best friend? huh? i think two weeks i never talk to tracy. i dont know what happen. just nothing to chat with. she is prettier and cuter. yeahh~ sure i know. everyone know. and i never say i pretty and cute before. she is smarter. everyone know too! haha. but maybe i will smarter than her one day? im trying my hard to get good result. omgg. i jles bl loves tracy much? for what? tell you guys. my love is more more sweet. however me and him never together. we cant meet each other. but i still love him and he still love me alot. we still can chat or be close all the time.
boon loong~ see yourself. think think about it. you're a good guy that everyone know. but now~ what happen to you? because of a gal you became like crazy people. she wont care what you do i tell you. she never care before! i cried in front of her and she never care too! stop your energy to think about childish things or making trouble to us! everyone is just pity you now. you dont feel tired? stupid for loving a gal. and try to see yourself lahh. like what? just likee. arggg. im tired to talk about it.
if you want kill me then up to you. well~ i very scare you! i think you will feel happy if you know i scare you. haha. actually im just scare i dont have tomorrow. because i still got many many things wanna do. i just want my tomorrow!
