Monday I passed up my request form for changing class, I want to drop economics and take account. Because I don’t really know how to do the Economic work, and feel interesting in Account.
Today before break time teacher told me and pui mun that both of us can change to 4k2. But we both are the last students who can change class. No more other student to tell teacher they want to change class because drop this subject or what.
I thought when teacher let us know that we can change to k2 I will happy. I’m wrong at all.. My heart feel so sad and I suddenly feel so down. Feel like I will miss this class, everyone like em sei tak me and asked me don’t to change class, they gave me reason for asking me stay in 4k1.. know what? because no people will let them copy answer or help them do work edy. But I not sad with that reason some more I feel happy because got people will treat me good and feeling em sei tak me.. Who don’t feel happy when got people ask them to stay?
After break went to 4k2 for my new life. Feeling so down and sad! I wanna cry immediately but I had control myself not to cry out there. After school I cried inside the school bus. I sms chat with Hoong Zhai about that then Vincent with him and he read all the msg. He called me after he know my feeling, feel like he saying me "dai sei". Haha..
He said : “now you regret leh? Know why I go to k1?”
Telling me his story and I cried when he telling me all those stupid idiot things..
Feel like no body like me when I am in k2.. I think the whole class will know..
Test your feeling, how if you’re a girl, everyday laughing.. she control herself not to simply get angry and must be friendly.. she wanna do it! Telling herself making friends is for happy and must learn to control the negatif feeling or mood.. know what happened to her? When she moved to the new life, like nobody like her.. having lesson the whole class passing letter and chatting about her.. so sad you know!
People said :
“Why you change to our class? Our lesson already half way leh” - I will work hard to catch up my work!
“Wah.. our class many students edy leh, you still come here arh?”
“Aiyorr.. this class not study want, play want.. why you come here?”
“Go back your class lah.. here not study wan..”
I CAN FEEL IT! I GET WHAT PEOPLE TELLING ME..
Be quite the whole day, don’t talk much and act like normal to concentrate my lesson. When I in k1, everyone treat me so friendly.. will play with me.. will talk to me.. will joke to me.. bully me? but it just making fun.. now.. even my best friend group are around me, beside me, behind me.. but I still can’t feel the happiness..
I know if I ask for changing class again the teacher sure kill me, just like what Hoong Zhai said, the teacher sure "tulan you".. but I cried the whole day edy! I don’t know how.. Just tell my mum that today I’m moody.. but my parents seldom care us, they don’t really care which subject we want to study, just up to us.. They let us choose it by ourselves.. want to change class? Type out the letter and ask them sign can edy.. Just tell them you want to change class.. But now.. How? What should I do? My school life.. not the classmate not good.. Just feel that I’m not happy in k2.. not at all.. don't know why.. super emo..
# Jie jie.. I miss you so much! I need someone to share with me.. Why don’t you’re here.. I really sad and down now.. Feel so lonely.. =(
