I'm sure I look down today, I look so blur and everyone around me realise it i think. This afternoon I followed my aunt to Sunway because I never go to school.
When my mum called me from The Curve, she asked about the shop thing then I suddenly told her "Mummy, I'm sad now, I'm not happy, how?", that time I just felt like crying but I can't because I still have to face customers.
My mum asked me why, at first I don't want answer her, I keep telling her I'm sad, I'm down. She asked what happened, she like guessing, she answered one by one, "aunt scolded you? get scolded from customer?boyfriend don't want you?" and those funny answer that weren't happen to me. (mummy, do you think I got chance to sad because of boyfriend? your girl no friends now, got boyfriend? funny.. lol)
I know she really want to know so lastly I told her I got friendship problem, I said my friends suddenly don't care me, they don't want talk to me, I don't know I'm too sensitive or it is true. Then my mum answered "will die is it? no friends will die? always because of friends and made until yourself so down, always cry because of friendship problems, always down because of this."
I heard her answer and say bye to her.
I want someone to concern me, teach me how to do.. arggg.. I don't know everything.. I'm blur!
Family went out for dinner today, after dinner, my dad suddenly scolded me when we're on the way to home, he scolded why I sms just now when having dinner, why I look abnormal today, why I look so blur. His voice so fierce! He asked what's wrong with me.
My tears wanna drop down from my eyes on that time. But I don't wanna let my dad know what happened to me. I think only my youngest sister will share with him if she got problems and other siblings will keep it by themselves. I never let him know anything, just force myself to smile at him and my grandma.
My grandma came to my house this afternoon because my auntie is free today, i think they can realise that I look.. quiet.. haha. Everyone around me look very happy. I wish them don't be like me too. Stay happy or be happier :)
emmm.. I don't know who to chat with, I think I will just disturb others if I chat with them with my problems, I just wasting their time. Whatever, please just ignore me. PLEASE~
Sorry for disturbing..
