Today, I don't know what's wrong with me, I felt like.. asking question to others, so I asked one of my friend. I asked her about my friendship things.
Then she answered things that made me surprise, because what she said is all correct, I thought no one will know about it or no one can see. I was sad last few months because of my friendship problems, I felt like jump down from the high building, I think all those stupid things.
But lastly I tried to don't think and don't care, just think everything is my problem, I have to change to the good way and let others accept me as their friend. I don't think I'm prefer now, but I can swear i got change, I had changed lot.
I study lot from others mind, I listen to others, I tried to accept it. I read those books name "Be Happy" and "Making Friends". hahaha. I get lot point from there and try to be a good gal in everybody mind.
I know I'm still bad now. Some people can't accept me, but I swear if you let me know what's wrong with me, I will think think about it, if it's good for me, I will change.
But you have to give me time, and please don't gossip behind me, tell me all true about me, let me know what I'm. PLEASE~
The girl told me how my best friend treat me as she saw and as she knew. She is a girl that super straight when she talk, her words hurt me and I don't mind because all her words like telling me I'm always hiding myself.
I felt sad about the problem before but I tried to don't think about it, be back myself and keep it myself. I never tell everyone, here the girl came and told me this. LOL. I was surprise she can see what happened to me.
I asked my best friend but she doesn't want to listen and doesn't want to answer, I just want to talk to her, but she doesn't ... care.. so I never care about it also. I just let it be. If the relationship is like that and it can't let it be better, I have to give up, I shouldn't always tried to make our relationship closer since others doesn't like me.
How hard I did the result will be the same. I wanna blog out this to remind myself not to do those idiot things anymore. They don't like means don't like, how hard I do they will ignore it only.
I just wanna say out what I heard from other today, I'm not feeling sad, moody or angry now.
emmm.. how come?
haha.. I'm fine here I think..
Before I stop, I wanna say I was happy yesterday when she asked me not to leave to Penang and stay in Sri Garden. I don't know whether you know that's you anot, but I have to say thanks, because your words made me happy.
P/S: I'm not complaining or saying bad others, I just know ... and trying to say.. I'm not important for anyone.
